If SDs are like buses then....

I must be at the wrong bus stop! Lol. I haven't updated in about a week because I haven't had any action at all in the sugar world...and also my RL has imploded. But I'm working on that. Lately I've been having dreams that have alluded to a change of some sort...last night I was dyeing my hair, the other night I was in an ascending elevator. Idk. But I do know that I am now on a serious sugar hunt, because next semester will begin in January and I realize that I will have no money for tuition or books if something doesn't change---and fast! So I need to get myself together and handle my business.

I also have been thinking about how hard it is to find the RIGHT SD. Because I'm not looking to be screwing some old hornball, instead I want to make someone feel appreciated, by listening to what they have to say, what they go through in their life and at their job, by giving them a massage when they look stressed, not just screwing them and having them leave the money on the hotel dresser. But with that being said, I also do not want somebody who will just believe that he has all the power because he has the black card and the fat ass bank account, I want someone who will listen to what I have to say, who will make me feel appreciated, who will also just HELP me. All I need is HELP. Not many people get to where they are going by doing things all by themselves, they need help and I'm no exception. Although my boyfriend makes me feel appreciated he can't help me financially in the way an SD can. Financial burdens are not something teenagers should have to worry about (that's just my belief) I feel like my main focus should be to receive a 4.0, not juggle a 3.2 with 2 jobs and still worry about how this next tuition payment will be made. I just need help, and to find the right man who will provide it for me. In exchange he will get everything he is lacking at home (excluding sex) I know that wanting that is idealism but I won't stop until I find that because I'm not lowering my morals for anyone (no matter the size of his bank account)